The City I Live In - Some Time

It's the only tool that will stop time itself.

Our existence is fixed to the time in which we live. Like photography, crystallising moments, and seemingly negating the time after or before, anchoring our existence to an inescapable timeline, so too our lives are lived as a burst of the shutter, transitioning within the now, progressing our thoughts too along this timeline, regardless of their creativity or pathology. They too are fixed to this time and fleets ever more than our empirical existence.

Like the sepia toned photo of a tuxedoed Jack Nicholson at the end of The Shining, our fate is inextricably tied to the now, our decisions a veil of illusion shaping our time to come, to unfold our free will, our agency, woven into the fabric of this time and no other time we can know or shape.

Play along with the absurdist theatre we must and accept that we are tethered to the now, and yet, there is much to reap. Seeing the world transition through our time is a constant gift freely thrown at those healthy enough for a life lived with longevity and hubris. We are stuck in today's time, yes, but that would be true one hundred years from now or past. You can only appreciate empirically what is in front of you.


What's Going On

Life occasionally throws you a gem. Often, it arrives fully formed and irresistible, waiting to be taken and revealed. I headed over to the Nag’s Head Market, nervous at the prospect of speaking with a few of the traders I met briefly a few weeks ago; they have probably forgotten who I am, surely busy with their own lives, the rush brought to the market by Jeremy Corbyn conspicuously absent for me to ride. There would be no broken ice for me to utilise this time.

As such, it seemed prudent to start with the most vocal resident of the market, Mr Clifford Farrell, the ring master to all the excitement surrounding Jeremy Corbyn’s visit I had chanced upon. Busy cooking fried chicken in his Paradise Passion cafe, I tentatively wandered over and introduced myself. We spoke of my blog, if he had seen it, his opinions of that day, his thoughts about Sidiq Kahn, and the Labour Party. He explained that he had supported Labour since his arrival from Montserrat in 1998.

Part of a group of Caribbean island in the Lesser Antilles, Montserrat is still part of the British Overseas Territories. Training as a firefighter at the Hampshire Fire and Rescue Service here in the UK, Clifford returned to Montserrat and was involved in the evacuation of his village following eruptions of the Soufrière Hills volcano, which became active in 1995 after many years of dormancy. For the next four years, multiple eruptions destroyed large parts of the island, including the capital city of Plymouth. 

Clifford showed me a series of photos from this past, photos tattered and inexplicably kept with him at his Paradise Passion cafe. I could see that these images were still highly significant to him. We went through each of the photos, recalling events of the time, pictures of his family, his younger training days, and photos that captured the horror of the erruption. The reality of what had happened inescapably captured in a photograph of two girls, seemingly petrified and rigid, and covered in ash. These photos were all pilled together, not neatly ordered and stored, but jumbled and instantly accessible, like significant life events often are years later. 

Clifford received an OBE for services as a fire and rescue officer during one of the many eruptions that rendered large parts of the island uninhabitable. Clifford’s village was also destroyed by the great sulphur outlet. The subsequent mass migration of the Montserrat people reduced the population to a third, some dispersing to neighbouring islands, most emigrating to the UK. For Clifford, it seemed the right decision to move to London.

It seems significant that on the day of the referendum on the United Kingdom’s membership to the European Union, with all the vitriol and scare mongering, tactics that have bordered on xenophobia and indeed crossed into racism, I chance upon such a story.

In 1998, the people of Montserrat were given full residency rights in the UK and in 2002, granted British citizenship to those that migrated over. This is the Britain I know. Member to the party that offers help and aid to those in need across the world.

As I sat down to scribble notes into my notepad, sweat beading on my forehead from the humidity that seemingly doesn't ever leave London, and exacerbated by the heat spilling out of the stove, my eyes drifted over the many photos adorned on Paradise Passion’s walls. Photos of Clifford with his family and friends, brought together by the love of food, photos of his children…I spot a photo of him from 2008 as an X-Factor contestant.

I have discovered a local celebrity, yet throughout our conversation he was the picture of humility and understatement. He explained he didn't subscribed to bragging and insisted he would be the same even if he won the lottery. It's just not his nature. I thanked Clifford’s partner for the hospitality, but couldn't help asking about that photo, and with a warm smile, she said he had many talents. 

As I left the market, I spotted Clifford having a fag break outside. I asked him in or out and with benevolent eyes looked at me as though I had asked the silliest question of our time together. In, of course. “Why would we want to go change things when we are already in Europe. These people are confusing us and we'll go around saying what's going on, we'll all turn into Marvin Gaye, singing What's Going On.”


The City I Live In - Clockers

Years ago I avoided taking photos of people that clocked me and my camera. Staying passively in the distance, sneakily taking photos of the decisive moment, discretion was key to my compulsion as a street photographer. Seemed a truer form of street photography. 

I developed a number of strategies to covertly take photos, shooting from the hip as my camera swung into position, a technique fraught with inaccuracy to the point of maddening frustration, to pretending to play with my iPhone, its screen dimmed as far as possible, while I took the shot of the unsuspecting soul.

Styles evolve and an aesthetic simmers to the top of all work. Increasingly, I am seeing these photos repeat in my reels. That of the public catching sight of my poised lens staring back at them, often with my shutter already released. Clocking is one thing, reacting to it in time is another. But by capturing these people as such, I argued, I was affecting their nature. And in doing so, commenting on the art of the photo. No shame in art.

History is littered with photographers that have gone to all lengths to conceal their cameras. Paul Martin would document the life around him by hiding his camera in a brown paper bag, resulting in completely candid photography of the life in the nineteenth century. Erich Salomon would hide his camera in his bowler hat of all places to document legal proceedings. Walker Evens hid his inside his shirt. If you have the compulsion, you’ll find a way to capture the shot.

Yet some photographers seem to be invisible despite no attempt at concealing the camera. Vivian Mailer would ghostly drifting through the city cradling her camera at waist level. The doyen of all street photography, Gary Winograd, swore blind shooting from the hip was not real photography. Shooting openly contrasts hugely with those who went to such lengths to hide their equipment.

Then there are the brazen types. The brash and offensive photography of Bruce Gilden is somehow captivating despite there being no decisive moment other than the one forced upon the poor unsuspecting individual. I suspect the compulsion to document using these methods is just as strong, regardless of their subject clocking or not. 

There is a fine line between photographing for the sake of capturing a freakish person and documenting their existence. 

I shoot with the edict that if I see it, I take it. Sometimes I get it wrong, I am happy to admit. There are times my compulsion has captured true vulnerability that to post these photos trivially would seem to rob these people of their dignity. Other times I get it wrong and I am rightly confronted. It’s better that way. Right or wrong, it keeps my ethics at the forefront.


 

 

The City I Live In - Tube Life

Twitter. I have long looked at the app on my phone, keen to find a use, a legitimate use, only to be dismayed and bewildered when opened, longing to find a purpose. Welll finally today I have found an honest purpose for Twitter. It is a place I can post specific interests and projects, presenting my photography and writing, a place I can post my thoughts on politics, all through the magic of social media, with one post synced to pop up across all of my platforms. Alas, I haven't yet figured out how to repeat the feat here, and not wanting to miss a trick, I am semi-recreating that first series I started today on Twitter.

About a year ago I attended an improve your social media profile workshop, where I was under no delusions of its cynicism to rampantly grow ones profile, but beyond mass following for followings sake, I genuinely couldn't find a real purpose for collecting these numbers. Lets see how I can grow these numbers sans cynical ploys. 

The purpose seems to have crystallised today. I will be posting a series of tweets titled The City I Live In, about the city I love. Tube Life kicks things off.