valentina corvi freelance model based in london

Our lives are crystallised and fixed by seemingly passive thoughts and decisions; choices that divide our lives to the actual from the what ifs, the potential narratives substituted with our present existence and reality. 

How compelled are you to change? The urge to disrupt your life is inescapable once the idea hardens in your mind. 

Are we just driven by our childhood? Surely we can escape such self imposed constraints? Episodes of pain inflicted during our infancy temporally are ever present and further confounded by self inflicted pain. We enslave ourself with the choices from our past. We picked and chose according to a nebulous ideal, one that has drifted and ebbed away as time etched forward, indifferent to our changing mindset, oblivious to the pain that that choice would inflict down the line.

Why do we do this? The intimacy we crave is everywhere and all around us, so long as we look hard enough and allow its gift into our lives. Fearlessly and without concern at what it will do to our being, because we must trust in its beauty. We feel its heat, its warmth on us when our eyes are gazed upon and accept their judgement. It needn’t be negative, a mere benevolent action to hasten ones understanding with one another. And yet these can stifle us when those choices are incorrect.

Our freedoms are manufactured by these choices. We can be free of loneliness by choosing this lover over that lover, free of ennui by pushing a career choice, yet these freedoms can constraint and stifle. Entrap us into a life we perhaps have designed with flaw. We change and the vision we had before are but a faint echo now. And with those choices we must live by or change accordingly.